do you know the feeling that everything else is only half there if the vibe is not right? i am very sensitive for this matter and my conviction is that everything is swinging. what sounds a bit like i was trying to promote a new dance is my deepest thought. all life is depending on oscillation, everything absorbs waves in a way. human ears just do the obvious thing. they provide some frequencies tangable so the human being can use this sense to orientate, communicate and have early warning.

there is a very good production on this theme is the nada brahma – die welt ist klang by Joachim-Ernst Berendt. you should have a read on this, if you´re are touched by the belief that every organism on earth sounds and is sensitive to sounds in the one or other way. i like this state of mind that everything has vibes. maybe the ancient humans all knew that when crowding together in the night and making noises with everything they could use to, voice, body, drums and sticks, and even stones. they did what i´d call a party in these days. the early meaning of making sound was to prevent bad ghosts and real animals coming close. sound today can do the same, but instead of bad ghosts i´d rather call it bad thoughts and replace the real thread of animals with inner fears.

from my point of view we all like music because of the same reasons as our roots did. it´s part of us. sounds can heal you. today, i am attracted by concepts like the singing bowl and the OM.

my relatives tell me about me when i was very young, i seemed to be very musical and i always wanted to go where music came from. as kid i attended early musical school and i thank my parents for that! i think back then my love for percussion sounds came out of nowhere. i like the xylophone, i prefere the wooden ones. in school i went to play the recorder pipe just before i changed my preferred instrument to the keyboard. as i know now i was attracted by the synthesizer capabilities, not the skill to play the notes correctly. but back then i went to lessons only to have the synth in front of me.

after that, i think i was 14 now, i started playing in a local musical orchestra. due to my love of rhythm that developed from the beginning on, i chose the drums. so i trained the snare drum, the whole drum kit and i played some concerts. but there was a problem – i had my own ideas of making the sounds a bit more jazzy, thus making the sounds not like the printed notes but as i thought it would be cool. soon my tasks went over to the percussion where i could express myself without confusing the other players that rely on the correct fill ins of the drums to know when their solo or whatever has come. i played the bongos, the congas, the cabasa, the crash whirligig and later then the timpani. that was great fun!

but there was another direction i was heading to when i realized that i am only one person, thus only capable of playing music with my only two hands. but i wanted more. that was the time i started using the computer for controlling many tracks simultaneously. the point was, i changed my work pattern from playing really live but limited to creating concepts that the computer played for the instantiated me. it was the time of the mod trackers due to unaffordable sound hardware. i had a power macintosh 4400 while the most other friends still had the c64 or a windows95 box, if they even had one. do you remember that not every household had at least one computer? i was proud back then, i had the player pro, a mod tracker and it was all i ever wanted! later i realized this was only the sequencer controlling cheap midi instructions like volume, pitch and panning. but i could use wav samples and pitch them as i needed. i cloned the wave and reversed it and there i had what i needed. man this was good times.

as time went by, i gained experience in how sounds were impacting me and others. my music taste developed, and it was strict. it all started with a mix tape of hobby djs from trier my friend henning gave to me. it was so different from the stuff i knew from tv or radio. it was electronic music art. most tracks where released on platipus records, england.  connection to the internet was too expensive, and there was only one record shop in trier. they imported cds from platipus for me and got most of my pocket money for this. i remember that sven väth had a big impact on my sound feelings, that was unique to me. and so it began. my love for electronic music, call it house or techno or any other label, grew. check out sven väth´s fusion.

i started buying vinyl in the late nineties. i like the imagination that i bought a piece that sounds like a track but it´s mine and it need good care because it´s rare and sensible. i even like it´s weight, although i do not like it when carrying too much records with me to a party, hehe. a record album i was very proud of, and still am, is the super cool constant chaos of green velvet. it was limited and shipped in a real green box with furry velvet all around. i think this album transformed me at most. i remember standing disappointed in front of the record player and listening to slow beats with samples of groaning women in coitus. it was one of the rare moments where one thinks, what did i pay for, really for this crap? but then, with the time, i learned to love the chicago house music even i hate to call it like this, it labels tracks to be able to talk about, but it does not provide the exact track itself – so it´s still techno or what. i like the clear loops of drum maschines and a few synth sounds that play along and sometimes break out of the order. listen to green velvet´s technology out of control and you propably get to know what i mean by “break out of order”. i played this track rarely but when, it hit the club *shivering*.